Angapradakshinam @ Oneness Temple

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I have heard of Angapradakshinam in association with Tirupati Balaji. I have always wished that I should do the circumambulation of The Lord where one goes around the temple prahar rolling on the floor.

Bhagavan granted my wish when I got an opportunity to do Angapradakshinam at Oneness Temple during my Super Process. It was an amazing experience.

As usual, my mind had a question about this form of worship. I asked Bhagavan why we roll on the ground while circumambulating.

As always, He had a simple and amazing reply to my query.

Said Bhagavan:

See how the whole universe functions. The Planets rotate around themselves while revolving around The Sun. The Solar System does exactly the same while going around another star. So on and so forth……

Angapradakshinam is exactly the same. You rotate around yourself while revolving around God’s sanctum. This exercise is done to align yourself with the movement of the universe. It’s as simple as that.

What can I say! I had tears in my eyes as I heard this fantastically simple explanation from Bhagavan.

ANANTA KODI PRANAM MY DEAR AMMA BHAGAVAN! THANK YOU SO MUCH! I LOVE YOU!

ANOTHER PROCESS FOR BHAGAWAT SHAAKSHAATKAAR

Pooja had organised one more Bhagawat Shaakshaatkaar process at her home on October 16, 2013. I had gone along with my maids Jaya and Muni. There were about a dozen of us for the process.

Pooja gave a small introduction and then we began to sing Bhajans. The moment I closed my eyes I could see Bhagavan standing in front of the altar at Pooja’s home. He appeared like he does in the single Srimurti of yonder days. He stood tall, touching the ceiling and I could see light emanating from all over Him.

I requested Bhagavan to bless us. Light left His person in glowing sparks and flew into us. I asked Him to shower His Grace on each one of us. I could see the sparks coming towards each one of us and entering our Sahasrahara. We are so blessed!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR BLESSING & GRACE, BHAGAVAN!

LETTING GO OF CONTROL; GOING WITH THE FLOW

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Please don’t attempt this. It is a Divine Blessing! Bhagavan has to give it to us. All we can see is that we are unable to let go of control. That's what I did!

To continue from Golden Ball Darshan……

Whenever I return home from an Oneness Process, I find that it continues for a few weeks to the point where yet another permanent change occurs within me.

After the process at Pooja’s home, the first couple of days were like any other and then the mind began to do its work. I kept oscillating between breakthrough and breakdown. That’s when Amma told me to take Golden Ball Deeksha every day. I take Deeksha from the Srimurti at least thrice in a day.

I took Her advice and began taking Golden Ball Deeksha. To begin with, I visualised the Golden Ball in my hands before I placed them on my head. But after the first attempt, the Golden Ball began to appear in my vision during each Deeksha. Thank you so much Amma Bhagavan!

While my mind niggled that I had still not had Bhagawat Shaakshaatkaar, I slowly felt a unique peace seep within me. I began lighting a lamp and agarbatti every morning and night. Those who know me will definitely know that this is an uncommon occurrence. I am not too much into rituals and don’t follow a fixed pattern. As you can see, I light the lamp at night and that’s because that’s when I chant the Moolamantra for 21 minutes. Again, most of the days, but not every day. As we grow in Oneness, we realise that there is no compulsion to do anything and it’s best to go with the flow.

How to let go of control?

We can’t! And Bhagavan says that all we have to do is SEE that we are unable to let go of control. We plan our days, our weeks, our years and our lives, for that matter. Planning takes away all the energy and when do we live? He says that we don’t. We just exist. So very true!

That’s because we want to control every aspect of our lives. Not just that, we want to control every aspect of our spouse’s and children’s lives. We are actually leading a tortuous existence. Bhagavan is ready, willing and definitely has a million times better ability to run our lives.

But… what if He ignores my wishes? What if I am not able to achieve exactly what I want? What if this…. What if that?

Questions asked by the mind.

It’s actually very simple. God has created us for a purpose. That purpose will have its way, even if we take a thousand janams to achieve it. And believe me, when we are following our soul’s path, we will definitely find peace. But for that we need to let go. But is that possible? Not by our efforts. It takes the Divine Will to handle that. But how to get the Divine to help us in this matter? God has said that He will not interfere in our lives unless we call out to Him.

So, call Him. That’s what I did.

There were many days and nights that I have felt the pressure of wanting to control every aspect of my existence.

What my Antaryaamin made me see was this: As a human being, I have a very small purview of everything. Whereas GOD has a total 360 degree view while he also knows my past, present and future. At the same time I am trying to squeeze my life into a minuscule frame that is formed by my imagination, HE is ready to hand over the universe to me on a platter, without any effort on my part. Would it not be a smarter move to give my life into His keeping?

That’s how I realised the value of Surrender. Please understand that I had understood the lesson at my mind’s level at this point. Thinking ‘Surrender is best’ does not bring it about. I went on doing the Shashtang Namaskaarams every day. Not eleven times each day, may be - but definitely every day.

Is there a choice? It’s Bhagavan at work here. Surrender occurred, finally, after the process at Pooja’s place. So has Gratitude. I used to lack in gratitude. I realised that because my Antaryaamin told me so. But I feel more of that emotion too nowadays.

Yes, I am finally in a state of surrender, living on a day-to-day basis. I am not saying that this is ‘it’. There is still a way to go. But, looking back over the years, I have come a very very long way, all thanks to My Bhagavan.

Every day, before going to bed, I tell Bhagavan that I would like to complete a set of tasks the next day. I also give Him the freedom to decide if He wants to experience those tasks through me. Then I just sit back and relax. The work gets done, completely. Most of the time I am surprised at my energy levels, my determination to complete something, my total lack of distraction, my focus, etc. Then I realised, it is not ME. It is HIM doing the work. I am just sitting back and enjoying the ride. I don’t even have the worry of wondering whether I will complete my targets. It’s not my responsibility any more. I have truly LET GO! That has been possible only because of DIVINE BLESSING!

Is there a Sundari? I don’t know nor do I care. I am just GOING WITH THE FLOW.

So, at the end of the day, I just thank Amma Bhagavan for doing all my work and set out another batch of tasks for the next day. I don’t feel the urge to think beyond that. HE is doing it for me, so why should I bother?

THANK YOU SO MUCH MY AMMA BHAGAVAN FOR BLESSING ME WITH PEACE!

GOLDEN BALL DARSHAN

When I spoke to Pooja last Saturday, she had mentioned that she would be beginning a new process in her home – Bhagawat Shaakshaatkaar process.

It was my birthday on Monday and I was keen to participate in the process on that day. Luckily for me, Pooja immediately agreed to conduct the process for me on September 30, 2013.

When she took me through the contemplation, I closed my eyes and had a vision of the Golden Ball hovering near the Srimurti. The vision lasted for a minute or so and went away. After that, I had no other experience during the process.

I prayed to Amma Bhagavan thus, “You created me on this same date 52 years ago. That was at 6.30 pm. Please recreate Sundari without the ‘self’ today at 6.30 pm, Amma Bhagavan. And please give me your Physical Darshan.”

Bhagavan immediately agreed that He would do that.

In the evening, I asked Bhagavan about it. Grinning, He told me, “I have already come out of the Srimurti”.

When I shared this with Pooja, she immediately said that we would sing a few bhajans and Amma Bhagavan would definitely give darshan.

While she sat down to sing, I just could not sit back on my chair. I felt compelled to get up and dance. I automatically closed my eyes and once again saw the Golden Ball hovering near the Srimurti.

It appeared to move from the Srimurti towards me. It went back and forth for a few times and suddenly went into my heart chakra. My mind is extremely active and keeps questioning everything that happens. I immediately wondered, ‘how come the heart and not the Sahasrahara?’

The Golden Ball immediately moved to my forehead and then my Sahasrahara. Then it went down to the Manipura, Swadishtana & Mooladhara. I could see it moving everywhere. It then moved to my throat and finally settled back in my heart.

That’s when Pooja sang out, ‘Aavo, mere dil mein baso Amma’. I was stunned to see Amma climbing to sit on a seat that was suddenly there in my heart. She adjusted her sari and settled down. I went on seeing this in wonder while Bhagavan was standing beside her, smiling.

I was sitting at this time as I was a bit tired with the dancing. Suddenly, I saw Amma get up, raise her arm and dance. How could I sit watching that? I also got up and danced with her. And Bhagavan joined us. Then suddenly, both Amma & Bhagavan were sitting on a swing (jhula) within my heart that had become golden in colour. They swung on the jhula, back and forth, back and forth.

I am supremely grateful to Amma & Bhagavan for being a part of my life, 24/7.

I LOVE YOU AMMA BHAGAVAN!

SRI BHAGAVAN HEALS MY INCONTINENCE

I had been having incontinence since 2 to 2 ½ years. This is basically not having control over one’s bladder. I believe at least 45% of women suffer from this in middle age. I attended yoga classes for a few days and the teacher taught me a Mudra for curing incontinence.

I started doing it immediately. I used to deep breathe 100 times everyday using that Mudra. It gave immediate relief and in fact I dared to go to Bangalore by bus because I felt much better.

I continued to do the deep breathing and Mudra for more than four months with excellent results. I had even increased deep breathing to a count of 200.

Then suddenly, a few weeks back, the problem reared its head again. I thought it will disappear but it persisted for two days.

Mudra for setting right water
balance in the body

I was in a fantastic state of breakthrough and was unfazed. I told Bhagavan, “See Bhagavan, I have done my best to get cured of incontinence. I can’t do anything more than this. If this is what you want to experience as Sundari, please go ahead and do it. I give you total freedom.”

That’s it!

It has been at least three weeks since I told Bhagavan these words and I have never had this problem again. I have not even done the Mudra and deep breathing since then. I am amazed yet again at Bhagavan’s grace and have no words of gratitude.

Being one with a strong mind, I kept checking again and yet again if I am losing control. But then, I realise that it’s the Biggest Boss of the Universe in charge. I am finally totally free of incontinence.

I LOVE YOU VAITHEESWARA AMMA BHAGAVAN! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU A MILLION TIMES!  

MILK MIRACLE

As I have mentioned in a previous blog – Bhagavan in my kitchen - Bhagavan is a great help in my kitchen.

Today morning, He performed a miracle. Well, miracles have become a way of life with Him in my life. But I have to write about this one.

I had heated two litres of milk last night at about 8 pm. I was waiting for it to cool down before putting it in the fridge. While I went to sleep only at 12.30, I had forgotten about it completely.

In the morning, when I walked into the kitchen at 6.40 am, I was startled to see the milk vessel sitting there on my kitchen platform.

My daughter has to leave early to work and there was no one else up to go buy fresh milk. Of course, help is always at hand when you call out to the Almighty. I told God to please take care of the issue and after removing the cream, I reheated the milk in another vessel. From previous experience, I know the chances were high that the milk would be spoilt. But then Bhagavan is just waiting to perform miracles when we call out.

The milk was boiled and was in perfect condition, not having lost its freshness. My son is very sensitive to taste and even he felt there was nothing wrong with the milk. In fact he said that it tasted better than usual. I, of course, was not surprised to hear that.

Sri Bhagavan says that as the consciousness level increases, problems don’t necessarily cease. But the way we perceive them changes. I could see that change in myself all thanks to Sri Bhagavan’s guidance from within me.

THANK YOU SO MUCH SRI BHAGAVAN! I LOVE YOU! 

MY ANTARYAAMIN ON DECEMBER 21, 2012

I was disturbed since morning as nothing seemed to be happening in the outer world. I felt quite lost as I didn’t know whether I should push for something or whether things will happen by themselves. I had been nagging Bhagavan about a number of things – whether things will really change on or before December 21, 2012, how things will happen, etc.

Bhagavan: If I give you specific details, you will form them into concepts and believe that only those things will be possible. There is no sense in offering specifics as things will change as per the wish of the people and the way they visualise and create the world. So, it does not make any sense for me to tell you that the world will be in a particular shape.

Sundari: I am totally confused. That’s why I keep asking you to come before me and give me clarity. When Archangel Michael says that the earth will move into 5D but some part of the human population will stay back in a hologram, it sounds plausible, but I am not able to quite accept it. I thought that when 70,000 plus people are awakened, automatically, the world population should awaken. Then why this? (Click here for the reference link)

Bhagavan: Exactly. Here you must understand one thing. When AAM says that a situation is so, then that is truth. But we both know that there can be many truths existing simultaneously. When Steve asks certain questions, he receives answers that are acceptable to him. If I describe what 5D could be, people living in 3D may not even understand what I am talking about. And I will not even be giving the complete description and will probably be only giving a minuscule viewpoint. So what do you want me to say?

Sundari: All of you keep saying that we should not keep our focus only on December 21, 2012. I am confused as to what I must do or not do.

Bhagavan: There is nothing for you to do except meditate, pray and keep seeing your thoughts. You cannot do more than that. When you feel fear, be aware. There is nothing else for you to do. I told you to ask for enlightenment NOW, and not to focus on a future date. You have to be aware that you are living for December 21 and that you are not even aware of today or the second you are living in.

Sundari: True. But I don’t know how to come out of it.

Bhagavan: You have to be aware and ask for enlightenment NOW. That’s why I told you to take deeksha as many times as possible and especially whenever you feel low or are sliding into a breakdown. When you take the deeksha, you have to tell your Divine to grant it to you NOW.

Sundari: Thank you Bhagavan, I have been doing that. In fact, I have told the people around me to do it too.

Bhagavan: Every single concept that everyone visualises can become possible in 5D. That’s what creating is all about. That’s why it is not possible to tell anyone exactly that this is how the world is going to be. Even God is game to be surprised and every moment is to be experienced. There is no need to fear and you know that. You are disturbed as you are losing control over your life completely and you don’t know what’s going to happen. You feel if you have a date (December 21, 2012) on which you can focus, then there is some semblance of control. That’s exactly what I don’t want you to do. But then, I realise it is like telling you to take medicine without thinking about the monkey. You will do exactly what I told you not to. That’s why I keep reiterating that nothing special is going to happen on December 21, 2012. If I say something, you will hold on to that tightly and imagine that only that one thing will happen on that date. That just cannot be true. Are you able to grasp what I am saying?

Sundari: Absolutely GG! I understand and thank you. But please give me something to go on.

Bhagavan: I have told you all the story of the two farmers during the advent of Kali Yuga, during Lord Krishna’s reign. How they changed drastically in barely a week’s time. The first week, both of them wanted to give away the pot of gold to the other. Immediately after, they each turned selfish and wanted the pot of gold for himself. That was so because of the change in the Yugas. Dwapara Yuga where there had been 50% positivity had given way to Kali Yuga where there is only 25% positivity.

In the very same way, now the Yugas are shifting once again. Kali Yuga is giving way to Sathya Yuga where there will be 100% positivity. Immediately, around December 21, 2012, there will be a grand transformation in people’s hearts and minds; even in their whole systems. They just cannot think negative. There is also the added bonus of all negativity being wiped out from your unconscious mind and all karma cleared out.

The result? There will be no fear, unhappiness, tension, negative karma, pain, disease, jealousy, anger, lack and other negativities. MAN is literally reborn with a clean slate. What you create over it is up to you. But imagine living without these negativities that are weighing you down now. That will be your state. That is what the Golden Age is all about. For this mental state to reflect in your outer world is totally up to you. You have all the help from your Gods, Celestials, Galactics, Extraterrestrials, People from the Inner Earth and more. All you have to do is ask for it.

I am offering you a state of pure love, joy, happiness and plenty. Just grab it with both hands and enjoy.

Sundari: Thank you so much, Bhagavan! I love you and will continue to nag you till you appear in front of me. :D